oh well…I’ll try to update as much as possible

it’s like wtf…
i nv wanted to be the eldest ok!

she nv get them to do the housework
it’s always me me me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to be honest,
i’m getting rather fed up already

i only want more freedom
is it that hard to give me?

i can’t do my own bloody things is it?

wat kinda bloody reasonale is that… that i must do everything

i’m bloody 27 years old already
and still i got no fucking freedom

i felt dumping everything and just run away to a place where no ones know me….
and start all over again….

i’m really sick and tired of everything….

wtf lor

i suspect i’m in mild depression
or was it because i’m too stressed?

i dunno what stresses me
probably everything
everyone

i feel like running to a place where no one can find me
and just stay there…

then again…
money is always an issue

i’m really sick and tired of entertaining ppl…
even my parents

they nag and nag so much that sometimes i feel like telling them straight in the face to shut up

but of course i can’t…
why?
because in our bloody tradition, we can’t…

there is no freedom

why can’t i do the things i like
like the person that i liked

tsuyo is no longer an idol whom i adore
but someone i love dearly

if spending money on his items, prdts is considered wasting money
then i got nothing to say
i dun have much hobbies that costs money
well
except buying mangas… which i havent really buy much lately

i dun smoke
i dun drink
i dun go clubbing
i dun even go out much nowadays with my frens

is it so hard to just let me spend money on something i like?

why does everyone wants to control me…
why!

我想不止是心累了
整体上都累了吧

情绪一直以来处于不稳
很反复的吧

哎
或许看他看的多更悲哀
因为他其实也很惨吧

我始终觉得他有太多事说不出来
一种感觉吧
说不上来为什么的感觉

所以
看到这样的他
有替他感到悲哀的感觉

然后
再看自己
也好不到那里去

虽然还不至于想死
但很多时候要种生不如死的感觉

真的累了

i’m tired…..

as of now, I’ve received less than 5 greetings or was it 5 already?
anyway this honestly sucks

no gifts yet
sucks even more…
anyway i’m probably getting Tsuyoshi’s book for myself as part of the present i’m getting for myself…
shall see how my money ends up…

work is getting slightly boring…

i shld probably send a birthday card to myself….

“I dreamt my lady came and found me dead”
- William Shakespeare, Romeo and Juliet, 5.1

i’m terribly sleepy now…
probably ‘cos of the cough mixture that i took last night…

throat is itchy

not going to Genting liao…
no money liao…
and i’m getting sick soon…
so change of plan…

maybe can go HOngKong in coming Nov…
Sarah’s helping us to check the price of the airfare tickets…
or shld i ask blooder to ask his fren’s cousin help us buy… hmmmm
hope it’s cheap enough for us to go…
Disneyland!!!! here i COME!!!!

i’m gonna go get myself a pair of mickey’s ears, pluto’s ears (do they sell that?)
tigger’s ears, and many more… haha

then maybe figurines for my bro… but i know they do not come cheap in HK…
and maybe some doll stuffs? only if they are cheap…
limited budget i have…

starting to talk in a weird way i am…
funny it is…
haha

crappy pay
crappy me…

i want more money!!!!!!!!!!

i’m hungry…

last week was chaotic… to be exact, last friday – last sunday was chaotic…
because my dear blooder, got a last min notice from his company…
asking him to get lost… i mean to get ready to fly to the STATEs…
he received the notice on friday, he was supposed to fly on Sunday morning 7.15am,
then on Saturday, he went to the Immigration Board to renew his passport like super last min
and luckily it was approved lah.. ‘cos usually, you gotta wait like 3 to 4 working days lor
his company produced the letter, the airticket to the immigration board…
and of course they pay the fees too lah… otherwise i really dun think the
passport will get approved lor

then ah… my mum and i went to Lot 1 to change money for him on saturday…
we changed USD, YEN, HKdollar…
we used up SGD 700++ just to change into these 3 currencies…
since he’ll be there for almost a week, we got him USD 400, 7000Yen, 500HKdollars…
because, he’ll stop for transition over Japan & HongKong…

he’s going over to Cleveland, Ohio…
i mean he’s there now lah… lucky his phone is Nokia N95, can go wi-fi lor
then he can make use of the wireless to go online for free…
and hence cutting cost… haha

he will be back tomorrow,
11.35pm
Terminal 3
so we’ll go over to fetch him bah i suppose…

me and my sis, we were thinking of getting a new digital camera…
all for the sake of lightness, portable… haha
my SLR is too heavy to allow me to bring it out all the time…
so a normal one would come in handy sometimes…
we’re still choosing the model and brand… it could be Sony, Samsung (again?!), Nikon or Panasonic…

btw, Kinki Kids ‘s new single is out,
Secret Code – the theme song of 33pun Tantei
it’s actually quite nice wor.. heehee then again all songs of Kinki kids are great haha
i’m a die-hard fan hor…
11 freaking years i’ve supported and liked them…
and there will be many more to come haha

btw,
Jun Planning next yr is releasing these…
Arion Taeyang

Adsiltia Pullip

Angry Dal

Eris Byul (i think she’s coming end of this year?)

i was planning to get Arion leh…
but after asking MH, it appears that MH is selling him for SGD 140 wor…
a bit ex leh… cos it’s the designer collaboration again… haiz…

let’s see how lah… he’s coming only next year… so i can slowly decide…
and Jade is coming so my sister would be

haha and after searching online… didn’t really see anyone selling a fur wig
in a deep purple shade… ‘cos Jade’s original hair is this color…
so i was thinking.. if we ever de-wigged him.. i think my sis would also prefer
to get the same color… hmmmmm
sunny dun have leh…
cancan mayb have.. but too ex i suppose…
ahhh…. let’s wait and see bah…

got 2 comics to buy this week… – as of now lah
Nana #18
D-Gray Man #15
finally Nana is released… wait until my neck is long…

how long has it been since i posted here?
quite long i supposed…

been busy @ work and getting impatient over certain stuffs certain ppl

i need a holiday…